Glancing at my calendar pages for this week, I see a lot of tasks left undone. It’s easy to get bogged down in disappointment, to feel bad because I haven’t lived up to my own expectations. In the future, I see goals unattained because I haven’t put in the work in the now. If I were in a different place, I could easily be circling in a downward spiral with negative thoughts.
But that isn’t happening. Maybe it’s acceptance or ignorance or denial. If not now, consciously, then very soon, I’ll be in a different flow. And I’ll thank a friend of mine (who also made a great dinner in the guise of keeping her company when our time together over good food was certainly a two-way road). When I explained all the uncompleted jobs, she said that life has shifted for me, so I’m in a different flow. When I looked at her quizzically, she explained the changes in my life recently mean that other stuff may need to be adjusted. I liked her perspective.
Along with that change of view, and to accommodate the different flow, I need to accept all that I notice. Like how things take longer to do than I think they should. Or with my life changes, I may need a nanosecond to shift into the new. Or that if I complete a project (on time) or not, will it matter?
I’ve carried my spiral containing SG back and forth from the office to the kitchen table at least twice every day this week. I’m thinking it’s more than a short story, but not a novel. I’ve spent about an hour every day working on the answer key for the math book. I’m still maybe one-fourth of the way done. In holding off on doing the last step before diving into the Roanoak universe, I won’t waste that step if I’m not ready to take that dive. And the same with the admin tasks that need to be finished (since the hard work is already done, I just need to do the diligent work). This different flow deserves a little attention. How have recent changes affected your flow?